Monday, December 13, 2010

너의 뒤에서 (Behind You)

The original title is 너의 뒤에서, which means I will always be at your back.. It's kinda like I will always be there for you or I will always watch over you..
If I'm not wrong the original singer was Park Jin Young (JYP). But, I prefer Tim's version to his.

(The song in my blog is this song.)

어제는 비가 내렸어 너도 알고 있는지
돌아선 그 골목에선 난 눈물이 오∼
언제나 힘들어 하던 너를 바라보면서
이미 이별을 예감 할 수가 있었어 워∼
너에겐 너무 모자란 나란걸 알고 있기 때문에
지금 떠나는 널 나는 잡을수 없는거야
넌 이제 떠나지만 너의 뒤에 서 있을꺼야
조금은 멀리 떨어져서 조금도 부담스럽지 않게
이제 떠나는 길에 힘들고 지쳐 쓰러질때
조금도 기다리지 않고 나에게 안기어 쉴수 있게
너의 뒤에서
언젠가 또 다시 내가 필요할지도 몰라
나의 사랑이 나의 손길이 또 다시 워∼
표정없는 아픔의 말을 너는 많이도 미워하겠지
돌아선 나의 눈가에 고인 눈물을 알까
넌 이제 떠나지만 너의 뒤에 서 있을꺼야
조금은 멀리 떨어져서 조금도 부담스럽지 않게
이제 떠나는 길에 힘들고 지쳐 쓰러질때
조금도 기다리지 않고 나에게 안기어 쉴수 있게
너의 뒤에서

Did you know that it rained yesterday?
After I turned away, I cried in an alley
Everytime I saw you struggling
I predicted that a separation would come
Because I'm aware that I lack too much
I can't stop you from leaving right now
You may be leaving right now, but I'll be there behind you
So I can keep my distance, so I won't be a burden
On this path, if you ever fall from exhaustion,
You'll be able to lean against me
Behind you
Someday, you might need
My love, my touch
You will hate me for the hateful words I say without any expression
Do you know of the tears fill my eyes?
You may be leaving right now, but I'll be there behind you
So I can keep my distance, so I won't be a burden
On this path, if you ever fall from exhaustion,
You'll be able to lean against me
Behind you

lyric credits: aheeyah.com

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

You Can Let Go Now, Daddy

I really love this song..
Very touching and true~


YOU CAN LET GO NOW, DADDY
by Crystal Shawanda


Wind blowing on my face
Sidewalk flying beneath my bike
A five year-old’s first taste
Of what freedom’s really like

He was running right beside me
His hand holding on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I’m ready
To do this on my own
It’s still a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go

I was standing at the altar
Between the two loves of my life
To one I’ve been a daughter
To one I soon would be a wife

When the preacher asked,
"Who gives this woman?"
Daddy’s eyes filled up with tears
He kept holding tightly to my arm
‘Till I whispered in his ear

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I’m ready
To do this on my own
It still feels a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go

It was killing me to see
The strongest man I ever knew
Wasting away to nothing
In that hospital room

"You know he’s only hanging on for you"
That’s what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breaking
As I crawled up in his bed, and said

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Your little girl is ready
To do this on my own
It’s gonna be a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go
You can let go

Monday, November 22, 2010

being a doctor

Actually when I was a child, it never crossed my mind that I want to be a doctor.
But as I grow up, I see things around me and suddenly feel wanting to be a doctor.
I know it may sound weird and fake, but seriously, I want to be a doctor merely to save people. I know a lot people wanting to be a doctor or thinking to be a doctor because people say that you will get rich easily by being a doctor.
Of course, I need money to live my life and I will still bill my patients like what people do. It doesn't mean that I will give everything for free since I said that my original intention is to save/help people.

For me, I want to be a research doctor and find a way or medicine for incureable diseases. I want to let people who has those diseases to be cured and able to dream about future.
Those people who have deadly incureable diseases, I am sure it is very painful for them. They have to forget everything that they have planned for the future as well as give up on their dream.
People always say that if you can dream it, you can do it; if you try your best, your dream will come true; nothing is impossible, etc. But for those people, is there still any hope for them? Many of those patients have to give up their future, job, dream, love and relationship with people. Some are even being left by their own family.

However, now I am not in medicine department of anywhere near to my dream. Like Susan Boyle's song, I dreamed a dream. It is still a dream. People around me did not give me permission to enter medicine school. It is true that I feel very disappointed and want to blame them for that. But still, I also hate myself. Only if i have stronger will, I might be able to persuade them or force them to accept my decision. At the end, it's my own fault that I didn't get to fulfil my dream.

Then again, back to what I have said above about those sick people, it was not their fault that they cannot achieve their dreams. Life is just too cruel, isn't it? That's why, I really hope that there will be people who have the same thinking like me and try their best to cure those people, so that they will be able to dream about future.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

♥ Romantic Interpretation ♥

Hello again~

Last time, I already talked about The Wedding Song by Kenny G. However, it was only the rough idea. Now, I will explain the theme/story *again!!?? who ask you to do so??*
This time will be based on the umm, melody? I don't know how to put it, so I will just write it down.. Hopefully you can understand~

In the beginning, the piano plays first. In my opinion, it's kinda like the "guy" inhaled his breath, confirming himself that he was ready to play the song, giving his best, and letting go the girl.

At 00:22, the sax starts playing. This is the first part (00:22-00:45). For me, around this time, the guy was talking to himself. Keep repeating how much he loved the girl. At 00:37, he suddenly started pondering himself how can he fall in love to his friend.

Part two starts from 00:46 till 01:26. At this point of time, he was recalling him memory, from the first time he met her. There were some cute and funny things happenned when he was with her. Probably the girl is quite clumsy and "slow". He felt very happy whenever he was around her. At 01:06, he suddenly realized that those happy and warm feeling within him is love. He could help but laugh at himself because he never thought that he would fall in love with such a clumsy girl like her.

Part three's melody is same with part one (01:27-01:50). At this time, he felt that he wanted to be the one who always protected her, made her happy, wiped away her tears, and supported her. He also wanted to spend more time with her and planned a lot things to do together. I can feel that the guy was smiling when he played this part.

Part four's melody is same with part two (01:51-02:30). The guy was still smiling while playing the beginning at this part. He remembered the time when he decided to study abroad. He was imagining if the girl would cry and miss him when he was away because the girl was very clumsy and always needed his help. He couldn't wait quickly finishing his study and going back to her side. But then, at 02:12, suddenly the image of the girl wearing wedding dress with someone else standing beside her called him back to reality. This image really gave a painful felling to him. He realized that those are just his dreams. The reality was totally different.

From 02:28-02:32, the sax sound is fading away and we can hear a soft touch of piano sound. I feel that at this short time, the guy hit both of his cheeks to fully wake up himself, reminding himself what was the purpose of him playing sax on that day.

At 02:33, the sax starts playing again. This time it's soft gently but sure, reflecting the guy pure (also kinda angelic) determination to let her go.

At 02:44, the sax stops for a moment as if the guy was taking a deep breath.

The sax plays again at 02:45. Now, I can see he was smiling, really smiling from the bottom of his heart, showing that he had no regret.

The guy shouted "May you be happy " at 02:45-02:51 , and "May you be blessed" at "02:52-02:58".

From 02:59 till the end, the guy was like saying "Though we can't be together, my prayer will always be with you."

As the sax and melody fade away, he gently whispered
"...and I will always love you, forever."

Is my interpretation good enough?? Personally, I think that it is very sweet, romantic and touching. *eh? praising myself??*

Well, whatever, anw, I DO love my interpretation!!!! and... I really love the guy in that story. I hope that someday I will find someone like him *AMEN* : )


Deep thanks for reading my loonnggg nonsense post.. I have something for you all as my token of appreciation and finishing/final touch to make your romantic mood perfect.. Please google and try to listen to Kenny G. - Loving You.
I'm sure it will make your day great! and Have A Nice Weekend~!!!!

PS: for those who has bf/gf, enjoy your date~ =)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

The Wedding Song

Hello~ another random post by me.. hehe :D

Ehm, personally I don't really fancy saxophone instrumental, not that I don't like it. It's just that most of the time saxophone is associated with jazz music and I don't love jazz music.
But, there is one song that I really love, in fact there are three of them. Those are saxophone song or whatever you call it. They are not saxophone instrumental version from a pop song, but they were created originally for saxophone. *umm, hopefully you can get what I mean*

The song that I want to talk about now is The Wedding Song by Kenny G.
Ever heard about it?? It's a very nice song. Go and google it if you haven't.
AND PLEASE PLEASE LISTEN TO IT FIRST BEFORE YOU CONTINUE READING MY POST!! =)

From the title, I am sure that it sounds like a "happy ending" song, instead of a broken heart song. And if you DO follow my instructions, you will find that that song is very romantic after listening to it.

Here I am then. I have my own interpretation of this song, even before I know the title.
Well, I do love to interpret songs before knowing its title or translating it to English (if the song is in any foreign language that I don't speak). Quite a weird hobby, isn't it?

First time I heard this song was couple years ago, about seven years ago if I'm not wrong.
When listen to this song, instead of having a "happy-ending" feeling, there was this overwhelmed feeling of sadness and loneliness in my mind. Thanks to my curiosity, I did a research of this song. After looking for a while, I found out that this song is called The Wedding Song. Again, I listened to it so many times to get the mood to interpret thing song.
Well, I am a so-called romantic person and quite particular about some little things like mood and timing.

After a while, I finally got my mood to analyze this song. However, around that time I was very young and not able to describe things in details since I hadn't learned and seen a lot things.
Erm, I don't know how to explain those, but it's quite similar to tasting. The more knowledge and varieties of food you had taste, the more descriptions in details you can make. Like sometimes people like to say "spicy". The word spicy itself has a lot of different types, for example, pepper spicy, chilly spicy, etc. Sometimes you do realize the differences in the spicy flavour itself, but you just don't know how to describe it.

So, it took me until recently to finally able to describe or so-called interpret this song.
I interpret this song by associating it with its title, The Wedding Song, and below are my story for this song. Hope you will like it :)

Based on the title, of course, this song is a song that is being played in a wedding ceremony or party. But, the question is by whom? The groom or even the bride? And more importantly, to whom this song is dedicated?

In my interpretation, this song was played by the bride's best male friend. He was an old friend of the bride. In fact, this whole time, he had been in love with the bride. He also always be the first one who came whenever the bride needed his help. He was a very loyal friend. He always listened to her stories and complaints. He always put her in the first priority, and there were many more good virtues about him. Just imagine a very gentle, kind, and perfect man, that's him.

He never confessed to the bride because he wanted to be a "MAN" first. He thought that his current condition was not good enough so he wanted to improve himself. He studied abroad (most probably in Vienna, to improve his saxophone skills). However, before he realized it, the bride had found her right man, someone who would stay by her side for the rest of her life.

Hearing that news, he did feel sad. He felt disappointed for not being able to be the one who could make her happy. Of course, he also thought of stealing her from the groom, but he realized that it would only make her sad.

He thought about it for some time. He would keep his feeling for her for himself. He'd never told a single soul about it. He didn't want her to pity him neither gave her a burden by knowing his feeling. One thing for sure, he never called himself "broken-hearted" because he thought that she never broke his heart. It's just that his love for her remained silent forever.

At the end, he composed this song for her. This Wedding Song contained his prayer for her and his determination for letting her go. He might not be the one who'd stand beside her, but his prayer would always be with her and protect her. He prayed for her life to be blessed and happy. And the most important thing, he was sure that it was the best way for him to love her : )

-Fin-

Monday, October 04, 2010

Time does fly, doesn't it?

OMG, without realizing, it's already October!!!

Well, I admit that I'm not good in keeping promises in ONLY writing blog. (Do take note, ok!? ONLY in writing blog)
Usually I always keep my promises, but for this one, dunno why, I feel sooo lazyy, hehehe..
Umm, what should I say.. ~.~
Now I am in my 3rd term studying hotel management.. Actually, today is the first day of my 3rd term..
Nothing much from school, except I have culinary art subject this term.

Today I learnt what are the basic cuts of vegie and did some practices. It was fun, anddd I did make a small "experiment", ohoho~
Not a bad one of course, this "experiment" is a part of my creativity!! *bluffing around* hahaha..
See, this is a proof of my creativity..
And I personally luv the one below. It's so adorable. Looks like the "man" is holding to a sword and preparing to go to war, hahaha.. *what a crazy imagination*

Ah, I also have a quote for the day!!!!!
"This is what I learn by paying SGD$26k." *see the pics above* LOL~
(Of course, I'm kidding, please don't sue me, school >_<)

Saturday, July 31, 2010

YOG Rehearsal

Hi again, minna-san~!!!
How are you??
As I promised before, I will share about YOG rehearsal last night.
It was very crowded. There were lots of people, I think there were thousand of them.
There's nothing much to say in the beginning. We just sat there and waited. I saw groups of people who will perform, passing by us.
Then, we were asked to walk and go to the floating platform. While walking, we kept chit chatting with our mentors and classmates. We took a lot pictures and had fun.
But, suddenly, we were asked to stop and not long after that, a big group of people were passing by us. Who were they? They were the kids who will perform for YOG opening ceremony. They were so cute and small.
Some of my classmates tried to scare them and yes, it did work. Some of the girls shocked and ran faster to avoid them. I guess they must be feeling like this , hahaha...
After those never ending groups of people passed by, we finally can walk again to the floating platform. Today we helped the rehearsal by acting as the "athelets".
As soon as we sat, they started the rehearsal. I was expecting something ordinary while in fact, it turned out to be something good. Most of the performers are elementary and secondary school students. They were really good. Guess, they had been through "merciless" training, maybe??
Anyway, the rehearsal was very nice and I did take lots of pics and videos *giggle giggle*
This is one of the pics that I took
Inside this photo, yes, they are my classmates. However, this isn't all of them. I have 45 people in my class. (what a huge class, isn't it!?)

Friday, July 30, 2010

My First Violin Lesson

Today was a very special day to me coz it was my first day of violin lesson.

In the morning as I woke up, I felt very excited~ XDD
I cleaned my room first and did my usual activities.
And then, when the clock was pointing at 3, I went to take a shower and prepare myself.
Maybe because I was too excited, at the end I ended up coming too early. My teacher had not been there yet. So, I was waiting for him or her.. ( I still didn't know who my teacher is).
At 4:05 PM, she came in and greeted me. (Oh, it's a her).
Then, we went to my classroom. It was a small room almost the same size as my queen bed, maybe in the size of 2mx2m?

Anyway, I started my lesson. She taught me how to hold my bow and violin. I had no problem when holding my violin and putting on my shoulder, but I did have problem in bowing. My right hand was so stiff and nervous (I guess). She kept telling me to relax, relax, and relax, which I always failed to do.

Thirty minutes seemed very short and before I know, the lesson ended. Today there wasn't much that I learned, but I felt very happy because now I can make my violin sing~ not making some weird sound like I did before I attended the lesson.

Now, I have to go back home as soon as possible because at 5:30 PM, I have to attend a full dressed rehearsal of YOG opening ceremony in floating platform. I will share you all my experience there later.

For the time being, c ya~!!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Hola~~

WOW, it's sure been a very very long time since the last time I posted in my blog..

Hello, minna-san~~
Did anyone miss me?? (of course no!) ahaha..

Umm, btw, this is my first post using my new laptop which I bought last week..

My old laptop spoiled >_<
It was working normally the night before, but the next morning I could not turn it on.. I was panic and immediately went to Sony Service Centre.
According to Sony's staff, my motherboard has spoiled and it is most likely coz of short circuit "dammit electricity!!* )
Then, I asked whether I can fix my laptop, but the staff laughed and said that instead of fixing my old laptop, it's better for me to buy a new one because of fixing cost is almost the same as buying a new one..
So, I called my papa and he told me to just buy a new one..

That night I cried coz I really don't want to change my laptop.. It might be quite old and the machine is not as updated as the new one, but still, it was my first laptop and I REALLY love it..

However, I need to make up my mind and buy a new one. Therefore, the next day I went to buy a new laptop.. At first I tried to find a similar laptop to the old one, but I couldn't find it. (guess I really have to let it go)
After thinking for like one and a half hour (btw, I really felt sorry for the staff coz he had to wait for me), I made up my mind and chose one series which was the most similar to mine compare to the rest..

Well, my new laptop is not bad.. In fact, it is very good.. It runs faster (of course).. It's just that it does not have any music button and illumination light like the old one.. Also, I can't use some program coz it's Windows 7 64-bit (previous one was Vista 32-bit).. Some programs like Google Chrome and Lyrics Plugin often got crashed.. And more importantly, I am not used to Windows 7..

Though I love my new vaio, I will never forget my old vaio.. I have lots of memories together with it.. I will definitely try to fix it (when I have the money)..
.....till we meet again my laptop


One more thing, I just found out that some people are using my blog as a source/credit for their website..
Thank you very much..
I feel touched since I never thought that my blog can be useful..

I will try to keep my posting regularly!!! Ganbatte kiku~!!! (but again, hopefully I can)
.....arigatou and

Friday, April 02, 2010

Someday : )

Someday~
I really love this song, its lyric and melody, though I haven't watched the movie.
But I think most of you guys already watched the movie.
Or you guys also haven't yet watched it? Or even worse, never heard about it??
Check it out then. Someday is one of The Hunchback of Notre Dame's soundtrack.
Ah, as long as I know, this song has been sung by three different singers, Eternal, All 4 One, and Chloë Agnew.
I love all of them but if I have to choose, I like Chloë Agnew and All 4 One version better.


SOMEDAY

Someday
When we are wiser
When the world's older
When we have learned
I pray
Someday we may yet live
To live and let live
Someday
Life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
And greed will not pay
God speed
This bright millennium
On its way
Let it come
Someday

Someday
Our fight will be won then
We'll stand in the sun then
That bright afternoon
'Till then
On days when the sun is gone
We'll hang on
If we wish upon the moon

There are some days dark and bitter
Seems we haven't got a prayer
But a prayer for something better
Is the one thing we all share

Someday
When we are wiser
When the whole world is older
When we have learned
I pray
Someday we may yet live
To live and let live
One day, someday
Someday
Life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
Greed will not pay
God speed
This bright millennium
Let it come
If we wish upon the moon
One day
Someday
Soon

One day
Someday
Soon

Monday, February 22, 2010

WOW, FIRST BDAY!!!

minna-san~~

Woah, it's been long time since the last time i wrote the last post..
Lately i have become lazy..
(Are you sure only "lately"?? not always??) *giggles*

Well, actually it's not only about lazy..
I also don't know what I should write here.. *sighs*

So why do i write something today, nah~~~
Because today is the anniversary or b'day or anything you named it i don't care~ XDD
Today is February 22, which means my blog has been here for one year!!! yey!!!
(though i think i barely can make it, upz :P)

SO,
Happy Birthday to my blog!! ≧▽≦
誕生日おめでとう, menou-diary~~


I hope in the future, i will write more and regularly..
Better than last year..
*i hope*

Thank you for all of my friends who have supported me..
(well, now it sounds like today is my bday and im giving a speech for it *LOL*)
Also, many thanks for anyone and everyone who always read my blog despite its rare update..
Hontou ni arigatou >___<

Well, guess those are the stuffs that i want to write today..
again,,

and kiotsukete minna-san~~


Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year 2010

Today, umm, not today..
I mean yesterday, it was December 31..
The last day of 2009.

My nenek (well from now, let's change her name to J, I felt weird myself if I have to type 'nenek' :P) and I went Bugis Junction for shopping..
There was a lot of people there..
The plan was to look for a gift for J's mum b'day..
She wanted to give her either bag or purse.
And so, we went around and around~~
*oh, no! all the stuffs made me drool >__<* *
I want all of them badly!!!*
Finally, J decided to buy a purse for her mum, but she didn't know which one to choose.
So, I help her to choose and on the way for choosing the purse, I saw a very cute yellow bag.. Okay, it's not like what you were thinking about (if you were)..
The colour was pastel yellow (not a bright one) and its just soo sweet XDD *kyaaa*
And guess what?
Yes, I bought that bag!! *hoho*
But, don't get me wrong. I didn't buy it for myself. I bought it for my mum.
She likes to collect bag (well, every girl/woman DOES) and she doesn't have a yellow one.

Then, we finished shopping and headed to City Hall.
We went to eat dinner in Shokudo, Raffles City..
It was a great dinner.
J got problem with Singapore food. *I think it's just a shock*
But, she enjoyed the dinner.

Around 10, we walked to Marina Bay to see the fireworks.
This is my first time to celebrate new year in Singapore.
Last year, I celebrated new year in Indonesia.
Woah, I thought if we came early there won't be a lot people, but in fact, everyone thought the same thing like me.
There was a huge crowd of people everywhere.
We tried our best to arrived in our destination 'safely'!
We arrived there around 11 something, which meana still one more hour to go before the fireworks.
We did nothing, oh, okay, I did nothing while J kept trying to take the photo of moon.
The moon was pretty indeed, almost like a fullmoon though I don't think it was the day for it.

Nah, let's go back to the present when I am currently writing this post.
The fireworks were gorgeous and I uploaded the video below to share with you guys.
How is it? Do you agree with me??
Btw, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D